Yesterday

I took Chevy in for an ear surgery yesterday March 5, 2009. Not knowing that it was going to be his last day alive. Chevy passed away this morning March 6, 2009 at
1am. Chevy went in for the surgery. The Dr. called and told me everything went fine that he woke up and that they took care of his ears. That out of the 150 ears she has worked on his by far was the worst. That she felt confident that they were taken care of. She told me that I could pick him up tomorrow afternoon. i hung up the phone and immediately told Nate the good news. Not 20 min later the phone rang again. i saw it was the Doctor and my heart stopped. I immediately knew something was wrong. She was crying on the other line and told me that Chevy had a heart attack. That the did CPR and that he is trying to come back. They told me they didn’t know for how long and that i could come up and say good bye. For those of you that know me. Chevy, (really without lying) is my first born. I would give my right hand for Chevy. I know he is a dog and that its not normal to feel that way. But he filled my empty wholes he made me complete. He took my pain away and he helped me to smile. We immediately drove up to Salt Lake to the clinic. It was impossible for Nate to watch this or to see him so he waited in the car. Walking in there alone to see my baby lying on a surgical table was just horrible. I know that you all are going to die when you read this but I did imagine it if it were my baby girl AddiLynn. What does a mom do when her baby is so helpless? He was lying on his side he had oxygen in and all kinds of monitors on. Chevy looked like he was sleeping. (And he was) I had the opportunity to hold him for 5 hours. After making the choise to keep him on the machines for the night hoping for a miracle, after saying my good byes We went home. When we got home Nate and I said a prayer and for the first time praying for Chevy that night, I told God that if it was his time to please take him peacefully and to let him know that I was so sorry and that I love him. Almost immediately after the prayer I felt peace I knew that was what was going to happen. Laying in bed holding his pillow I awaited the phone call. Around 10-15 min before my phone rang I felt a piece of me leave my body! I felt Chevy go home. As the tears ran down my check I prayed and said, thank you. Thank you for letting me hold on to him and thank you for loving him. I know that he is happy! That Chevy will never have ear problems again. The last four years with my little guy were perfect. They were amazing and I a m so thankful for them. Life is so short and Chevy taught me to live it and to stay strong. Chevy was so strong up to his last breath. I know that it will be so hard and difficult for me on all of the today, today steps I have to take. But inside I will always know that I loved him and that he was in the best hands. I get to start life in a different way today. I get to change my schedule and I get to be strong. I want my Chevy to eat my popsicles to sit on my lap to snore in my ear and to make AddiLynn Laugh. I was looking forward for AddiLynn to be able to grow up with such an awesome big brother. I am going to make Chevy a book. If you have any memories of Chevy that you would like to add please comment. Thank you for all of your support. I really need all of your prayers and reaching out arms today I really do!!! So thank you!